From Mom,
Today is supposed to be about love, hearts, chocolates and everything that is pretty and romantic. Somehow even wishing my husband a “Happy Valentine’s Day” seems wrong right now. He deserves it, don’t get me wrong, but how are we supposed to feel happy today when our little girl is so far away from us? How do I not focus on last night’s phone call when I spent almost the whole ten minutes trying to get her to stop crying and focus on getting better rather than coming home? Sometimes I feel like I say those things for my sake more than hers. I’m the adult, her mom. I’m supposed to keep it together in front of her. And so I say all the things I know I have to say to her even if I don’t always buy them myself. The truth is, today hurts and as much as I try to focus on the end result and how much healthier my girl will be when she comes home and how she is in the right place, getting the treatment that she needs, it doesn't make today feel any better. Today is not what it should be. It’s not what it’s supposed to be.
When I wrote out my husband's Valentine’s day card last night, I had to think hard about the stuff that was good in our lives rather than what is so wrong. God gave me a wonderful husband and awesome father to my girls. The best daughters any mom could want, great family and wonderful friends. Though it’s not Thanksgiving, I want to make sure not to take any of God’s blessings for granted and be thankful. There is a lot that is wrong and it is SO wrong that at times it can cloud our vision and not let us see what IS good.
Happy Valentine’s Day my sweet girl. We love you so very very much!
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